MEH.

Sorry I realized I haven't blogged in over a month! I have been so incredibly busy. MEH. So this is just gonna be a blog post of all the random thoughts or realizations I've had recently.

-I just bought purple headphones, & my iTouch case is blue. I know they don't really match, but that's okay; I don't really match either.
-Sometimes I think my life would be easier if I didn't have any friends. Then again, most of the time I feel like I don't have any friends, so my life should be easier.
-Why is everyone always staring at me? They're staring at how fat I am. Or they noticed I didn't iron my shirt this morning.
-People just need to get over themselves.
-People just love to point out other people's faults so they can forget about their own for a little bit.
-Sometimes the people that people hang out with are nothing like them, & you realize that when you're alone with the nicer one. Completely different personalities.
-I'm tired of feeling judged & criticized all the time. I feel like no one loves me anyway, so why should I stick around? No one would care if I ran away. I can never do anything right. I haven't been in a relationship in two years. (Anniversary this week.) I suck at school. I have zero style. My room is always messy. My mother can't stand me. I'm fat. I worry myself to the point of physical sicknesses. My sister is awesome, & she gets me. She makes me happy.
-I want to punch all of these people in the face. And not take any freaking names.
-I just want God. I want to listen to Jesus music all day. Better yet, I want to be with Jesus & God forever and give them hugs & not be aware of time and have no pain and no tears. Soon.
-I can't wait to have children when I grow up & get married. I'm going to love them SO MUCH. I'm just gonna pour my love on them & cuddle. They'll probably get tired of me ;)
-I want to be a writer, an athletic trainer, a stage actress, a pediatric oncologist, a Christian rapper, or an evangelist.


Well that was a lot. I probably would have had a lot more, but it's 1:37am & I can barely see the screen. Probably nobody reads this, but anyway.

Goodnight guys :)

xoxo, Erin