HOMECOMING?.. WAIT, NEVER MIND.

     

     
        So school's going well! My only challenging class is Pre-Calculus, I hate it. My grade's been dropping, gotta pick it back up! Rehearsal is going well. I get to be a hippie-stoner as the Apothecary in Romeo & Juliet! Did I say that last time? Oh well if I did. I'm so excited for this production. But I'm even more excited for Seussical!
       People have been really irritating me this week. I spent a lot of time crying. My two best friends both decided to go to Homecoming with someone else after previously saying they weren't going at all, so that really hurt. & this one girl at school said I wouldn't get accepted into Harvard. It made me super upset. Like, how dare you say I won't get accepted when you're too stupid to get accepted anywhere? I choose to think positively, since I tend to think the worst about everything, & believe I will get in. Harvard has been in my heart as long as I can remember, so I know God has a say in this. I'll work hard in school and let Him do His part. I've been feeling a bit lonely these days. On the bright side, people have still been saying I look thinner, even though I haven't been working out (but they don't know that). I guess because I don't always eat breakfast/dinner, so I haven't put on any weight. Whoo! Just gotta keep it up, and keep not snacking like I used to, cause I've been doing well with that. But anyway.
       The guy I wanted to go to Homecoming with asked another girl. The other guy isn't going at all, but he might go to prom, and I hope he asks me :) I've been seeing girls get asked to Homecoming in the sweetest, most creative ways the past few weeks. It's made me feel pretty sad. I know I have lots of time for relationships, but I'm 17. Excuse me for wanting one now. It's just part of being a teenager. So instead, on Homecoming night, I'm going over to a new friend's house with some other friends to hang out! They think I'm funny and cool, so they invited me over! Glad to have people who seem to appreciate me, even though I haven't even met two of them yet.
       Another thing I've been thinking about: sharing faith on social media. I think people should be free to discuss or express their faith however much they want. My Muslim friends tweet about Allah, my atheist friends tweet about not believing in God, so I should be able to tweet about Jesus, shouldn't I? I don't judge them on their faith or lack thereof. But some people actually state how they hate when people tweet about religious matters. I think, if you don't like me tweeting about my Savior, then unfollow me, unfriend me, whatever. Won't hurt my feelings. I'd rather have my God forever than have you as a temporary friend any day.

Happy almost-October!
xoxo, Erin

P.S. One Direction's new single, Live While We're Young comes out tomorrow! :D

REHEARSAL.. & PLAYS & WESTERN-NESS!

       The first two weeks of school have gone pretty well for me. Since I have two aide periods, I really only have 5 classes that I need to focus on, & one of them is a computer class. So four. This is gonna be a chill year & I sure as hell deserve it! The last three years of high school have been almost brutal for me, so I'd been praying senior year would be awesome.
        I've also been thinking more about who my real friends are. I'd say Lane is the best best, because it seems like he's the only one who genuinely cares about me and shows his love to me every single day. I am so in love with our friendship. Then Jaysha, though it's hard cause she's a million miles away in Florida & I haven't seen her in over a year. I send her pictures, but I miss her :( & Bonnie. She needs me right now, & I cannot turn away. And Gabe! She is just too freaking awesome for words. She's my best partner in fun crime buddy :D so yeah, everyone else who's in my life is either just a friend, or like an acquaintance (except my family, obviously). I'll say hi to you and make small talk or whatever but I'm not gonna tell you what really goes on in my life. You have to earn those stories. But I do love telling regular funny stories to anyone who wants to listen! It's my senior year, and it's gonna pass way too quick to spend another minute with people who don't really appreciate me. I guess Merryn would be in the good friend category also, she's been with me through everything.
        August 30th was my birthday! It was pretty chill in school, some friends gave me money! I was a little pissed that nobody brought me cupcakes or balloons to be honest. And I had callbacks on that day too. I can finally say I'm 17 :) WHOOO! I can finally go see rated-R movies.. legally ;)
       Rehearsal is okay. I got the role of the Apothecary in Romeo & Juliet, and I wanted to be the Nurse. For whatever reason I didn't get it. It makes me mad that our director always gives main roles to his favorites, when I'm just as good as them; I just never get the chance to show it. It's not fair. Lane & I always talk about how we're gonna go so hard in Seussical auditions. I have to be the Sour Kangaroo, I'm partly memorized on the script and the songs already! I would be the best damn Sour Kangaroo they ever saw. I'm gonna do so well in my auditions, there will be no reason for him to not give me the part. But I guess the Apothecary is okay. This is why I HAVE to be a director in LITL this year. I'm writing a script for it already & considering the people I want to be in it! One of them is the girl who got the part of Juliet. So excited! I can give people a chance to show their talent.
        Tuesday, Bonnie & I went to go see a play with other kids from theater. Our school got a grant that lets us go see plays at a downtown theater for free! They're always amazing. So far, I've seen 4 I think. My favorite was God of Carnage, it was AMAZING! I want to buy the movie version with Kate Winslet. Last night's was an improv group from Chicago with a few non-improv sketches that were basically poking fun at Texas culture--I THINK SOMEONE JUST FIRED A GUN OUTSIDE. Hmm. It was soooo funny! Just makes me wanna be a stage actress even more. Not necessarily as a career, just a hobby. <3
        Also it was Western Day at school Thursday! We have theme days to go with football. I'm gonna try to participate in all of them since it's my last year to do so. Our morning pep rally is when we all follow the drumline through the halls of the school & jump and do cheers. I was literally dripping with sweat. It took me about half an hour to finally cool down and for my shirt to dry off. Then Bonnie & I went to our afternoon pep rally & had fun together :) Lane is a crowd-jazzer, a Lion Keeper we call them at Turner, & he looked adorable & like he was having the time of his life <33 he drove us to Burger King before rehearsal to get some nourishment after our exertions. Makes me even sadder about not having my license. I literally daydream about all I'd do if I had a car. Anyway. Good two weeks!

Have fun in school!
xoxo, Erin

pictures from the play! I am in love with my shirt <3

and a picture of me from Western Day! I sent it to my mom & grandma & they showed people who said I look thinner :D I'm so proud it's showing!